what is wrong with me?
congratulations! you’ve done it again. you’ve found something that takes you away from how you truly feel, yet when the cracks start to show you are back to zero. it happened in 2023, it happened in 2024 and it definitely happened in 2025. can’t you see the error of your ways?
the small stuff you sweat. why? you put stock into everyone else but when things fall out of place you realise nobody is going to put stock into you. it has to come from within.
you think a quick fix is out of sight, out of mind. you’re embarrassed and you feel alone. so you find something else and consume it. it becomes the next thing for you, until it isn’t. and then we do it again.
now your life feels gloomy. you’re back to square one with nothing to show for it. everyone is moving on with their lives yet you are stagnant.
you are worthy, you think. you know what you need to do, you think. then you have a good day and you feel silly. what was i feeling so bad about? life is truly grand, you say. until it isn’t. and then we do it again.
so let’s breathe.
let’s set some goals for you to work on:
- talk to someone about it. you have private healthcare, let’s use it.
- admittedly you are not where you want to be. spend a day thinking about this, writing down all the things that you can do and makes you happy. find a way to incorporate this into your life.